It’s Saturday morning, which is my favorite day of the week because it’s Shabbat. This particular day is different though, because my firstborn son Andrew is leaving for college. Everything is ready to go, and while I have been preparing for this day since he was born, I’m not ready. As I watched him pack, trying to figure out what else he should take, I saw my two year old packing and getting ready to leave. It’s a bittersweet feeling that only a mom seeing her baby leaving, can fully understand.
I decided to take a leap and start Designbysig thinking that with Andrew gone, and my younger son Josh close behind him, I would have more time. What I didn’t realize is how much strength Andrew’s presence gives me.
Last night I couldn’t sleep. For the first time in months, it’s not new designs on my mind, it’s Andrew. I have been telling him about college ever since I can remember. I feel pure joy, but selfishly want him stay just a little longer.
To my beloved Andrew,
You have exceeded all my expectations, as my kid, my bestie and the kind hearted man you have become. The bond I have with you is priceless. Our talks, and even our fights, are treasured. I wouldn’t change a thing, except of course the messes in the kitchen, your room, and the number of towels I pick up from your bathroom floor.
Being a single parent wasn’t easy, but it also has magic. You have been my confidant, my partner in crime and most importantly, the kid I have always prayed for. You, Josh and me are the three musketeers. One for all, and all for one.
When I told you about Designbysig, your words were, “Good. You are talented, and it’s about time.” The pride in your eyes filled my heart. I made you a bracelet, which you now wear daily, and it feels good knowing how you make sure everyone knows your mom made it for you. When you ask me to make pieced for your friends, I think I might explode with joy.
Seeing you as an incredibly honorable man leaving to college is remarkable. I am so proud. Proud of you and your courage, your unconditional love to your brother, and your strong will to pay it forward.
I’ve been asking if I can come along, and we can be roommates. You smile and think I am crazy. Perhaps I am because I am serious. I still think we can pull it off! The way I see it, you can do my homework, and I’ll do your laundry. It’s a good deal!
When you asked me to take care of your dog, the first thought that popped into my head was, “This kid is insane”. That dog ate my favorite shoes!” Now I see it’s a blessing. It is comforting that I get to keep her for you.
You have brought so much joy and love into my life. I will miss you every single minute of every single day that you are at school. We are both going on a new journey. You with college, and me with designsbysig, and it’s a time to be happy not sad.
Andrew, you are ready to embark on this adventure! I have wanted you to go out there and make a difference in the world, and now you are, and you will. But you can bring your laundry home! I will do it, and maybe hide your favorite shirt so I have an excuse to come see you.
On this very special day, I wish for you an amazing time filled with new experiences, new friends, and new dreams. I love you so much Andrew. I know you will have a lifetime of happiness because that is what you have given me.
Love & peace,